Atlanta Poly Weekend 2011

Last week was very tough for me emotionally. The loss of Seran, even though I'd always intellectually known it could happen, hurt. It didn't hurt more than I expected (or less, for that matter). The saving grace of it is my sure knowledge that the circumstances themselves could have been much, much more negative and less filled with mutual compassion and love.

Against that backdrop, I was rather surprised to get an email from Atlanta Poly Weekend in my box. You see, when I took the new day job I'd sent them a cancellation email. When I opened the schedule there I was on it.

Um. Oops!

I hadn't wanted to cancel. I really wanted to go to this one. I had a choice: make it work or become effectively a last-minute cancellation for them.

Six hours later, it was settled: I was to fly out Friday night. I got in touch with the APW folks and got moved on the schedule to a later time.

The con itself was wonderful. It was a cozy gathering of polyfolk of all ages. I found out that even among them, my relationship map is a bit odd. I discovered that a lot of people consider a 45-minute drive between partners to be a LDR. (The distance between me and my Copper blew some minds.) There were a few classes I would have loved to attend, but for one reason or another had to miss. My erotic hypnosis 101 class went over very well.

Best of all, I got to spend some wonderful, very much quality time with my Twinklie and my sleepyhead. The attraction between the two of them is so very much fun to play with... In fact, one might even call it magnetic. (At least it will be at NEEHU...)

Lying in bed with them while they had happy, warm hypnotic sex was a beautiful experience. (Bear in mind this was fully and joyfully consensual.) The lines of their bodies, the way their hypnotized voices blended, the rhythm of the motion, the heat coming from their joining... Mmmmmm. Falling asleep in each others' arms later, peacefully and blissfully dozing off, emotionally replete... I really needed every breath of it.

I am recharged and renewed by this weekend. I cannot wait for NEEHU!

Follow Your Dreams

This morning, Seran (aka FollowtheWatch) decided that his path has led him away from the hypnokink community. His reasons are his own, personal, and I support him fully and completely.

We are parting sadly but warmly, and I sincerely wish him light, long healthy life, and love. He gave me the ownership of the Virtual Hypnotist group (before I even knew he had done so) and I will be seeking a programmer to maintain his hard work.

He has asked that people refrain from attempting to contact him, send him positive energy, or pray for him. I am acceding to his wishes and ask all of my readers to do the same. If you have him on your contacts, please delete him. I know there are those who might find this request coming from someone not him odd, and under most circumstances I would agree. These aren't most circumstances.

Easter has deep meaning to him, and spring means new life. As he begins his, I hope you'll join me in wishing him well.

Sad decisions

It makes me sad to write this post... but reality is what it is, and being a Domme means facing it for the good of my family.

I am not able to make a living trancing full-time right now. I'm pretty sure it's the economy, but it's not working as well as I had hoped. Had I gotten started some time ago things might have been different. The good news is that I have a new job I start tomorrow.

What this means:

No daytime hours for the present, evening hours as I know my schedule at my new job.
I still love you all.
I will be communicating more by email, less by IM for the next few weeks.
Appointments in the evening are desirable.
Travel is severely cut back.

What this does not mean:
I am still keeping all of my Chosen, playing with my pets, and those Questing for me are still on Quest... that is NOT changing.
I am not quitting D/s.
I am NOT going to miss NEEHU.

I am sorry it has to be this way. Please support me and know that one day, be it six months or three years from now, I will be back doing D/s hypnosis full-time.

I love all of you!