30 Days of Kink: How do I dress for scene?

Flowy. Comfortable. Soft black lingerie, or nothing at all, underneath dresses from Holy Clothing. Everything has to be soft, everything has to be flowing, and if possible purple. Bare feet whenever I can. It always feels so good to be in that space.

30 Days of Kink: Image that's hot

OK, this is one of those low-energy days. I'm posting one image today, and I reserve the right to post more later.

And yes, this is with permission.

Why is this hot? Because he's mine, sitting in his brainwashing chair, listening to my voice blank his mind. Because he's deep and compliant and passive.

Hot.

30 Days of Kink: Day 2

Today is the list my kink day.

I think it can be safely said that most of my kinks are variants of the mind control kink and fetish, which leans heavily to hypnosis for me.

For example, rope is fun, but it's most fun for me in the way it makes someone **feel** vulnerable. Ditto other forms of bondage. Flogging, yeah, ok, but I love the altered state from the rhythm of it.

One exception is that I have enjoyed fire play and needle play - as a Dominant bottom. I am still controlling the scene, but I am experiencing the endorphins with bliss. (I actually typoed that at "enjorphins." Hee!)

But the mind control is primary. When I remove the ability for anyone to say anything other than "Yes, Goddess" (so long as they have a nonverbal signal they can use to safeword)... When they become a robotic toy... When their minds just shut down in ecstasy of trance... That's what does it for me.

30 Days of Kink

All right, I'll give this one a go. Why not? :) It might keep me blogging a bit more, since it's a prompt-based thing and right now the day job is taking all of my energy.

I got it, of course, from my sleepykitten's blog. She's working on it for fun and for her writing assignment quota from me, so you might enjoy it. She got it from here.

I don't plan on doing it in order. There will be a lot of days when my energy level is low enough to do only the most basic ones, and other days (like today) when I have more energy.


Day 1: Identification


I identify as a Dom-leaning switch. I'm not afraid to switch and submit to the right person, but I am extremely picky these days about who I let hypnotize me.

I have strong elements of service top in me, in that I really enjoy getting people off. Chastity is not really my thing. But then, for my own gratification, I use sexuality to work my commands deeper into peoples' beings.

I am a pagan, and my patron deity is Aphrodite. The Charge of the Goddess says "All acts of love and pleasure are My rituals," and I take that seriously... even when pleasure is also mixed with pain. My personal taste is not to inflict pain except on those who really enjoy it, but I acknowledge and honor and revere the sacred nature of pain and its transformational properties.

I have strong elements of voyeur to me when it comes to people I know. Just random porn or people do nothing for me, but the energy of people I enjoy being around being with one another is erotic and invigorating for me. Even the sound of that can bliss me out for hours.

I love begging. The sound of someone so aroused they can't stand it begging for my permission to come, to be brainwashed, is incredible.

Mostly, though, it's the agreement with someone to let me go into hir mind, sometimes changing even who sie is, and guide hir into an incredible experience, one sie never thought about before... that has power, and energy. And the way I do it, it's love.

And that's joy.

Atlanta Poly Weekend 2011

Last week was very tough for me emotionally. The loss of Seran, even though I'd always intellectually known it could happen, hurt. It didn't hurt more than I expected (or less, for that matter). The saving grace of it is my sure knowledge that the circumstances themselves could have been much, much more negative and less filled with mutual compassion and love.

Against that backdrop, I was rather surprised to get an email from Atlanta Poly Weekend in my box. You see, when I took the new day job I'd sent them a cancellation email. When I opened the schedule there I was on it.

Um. Oops!

I hadn't wanted to cancel. I really wanted to go to this one. I had a choice: make it work or become effectively a last-minute cancellation for them.

Six hours later, it was settled: I was to fly out Friday night. I got in touch with the APW folks and got moved on the schedule to a later time.

The con itself was wonderful. It was a cozy gathering of polyfolk of all ages. I found out that even among them, my relationship map is a bit odd. I discovered that a lot of people consider a 45-minute drive between partners to be a LDR. (The distance between me and my Copper blew some minds.) There were a few classes I would have loved to attend, but for one reason or another had to miss. My erotic hypnosis 101 class went over very well.

Best of all, I got to spend some wonderful, very much quality time with my Twinklie and my sleepyhead. The attraction between the two of them is so very much fun to play with... In fact, one might even call it magnetic. (At least it will be at NEEHU...)

Lying in bed with them while they had happy, warm hypnotic sex was a beautiful experience. (Bear in mind this was fully and joyfully consensual.) The lines of their bodies, the way their hypnotized voices blended, the rhythm of the motion, the heat coming from their joining... Mmmmmm. Falling asleep in each others' arms later, peacefully and blissfully dozing off, emotionally replete... I really needed every breath of it.

I am recharged and renewed by this weekend. I cannot wait for NEEHU!

Follow Your Dreams

This morning, Seran (aka FollowtheWatch) decided that his path has led him away from the hypnokink community. His reasons are his own, personal, and I support him fully and completely.

We are parting sadly but warmly, and I sincerely wish him light, long healthy life, and love. He gave me the ownership of the Virtual Hypnotist group (before I even knew he had done so) and I will be seeking a programmer to maintain his hard work.

He has asked that people refrain from attempting to contact him, send him positive energy, or pray for him. I am acceding to his wishes and ask all of my readers to do the same. If you have him on your contacts, please delete him. I know there are those who might find this request coming from someone not him odd, and under most circumstances I would agree. These aren't most circumstances.

Easter has deep meaning to him, and spring means new life. As he begins his, I hope you'll join me in wishing him well.

Sad decisions

It makes me sad to write this post... but reality is what it is, and being a Domme means facing it for the good of my family.

I am not able to make a living trancing full-time right now. I'm pretty sure it's the economy, but it's not working as well as I had hoped. Had I gotten started some time ago things might have been different. The good news is that I have a new job I start tomorrow.

What this means:

No daytime hours for the present, evening hours as I know my schedule at my new job.
I still love you all.
I will be communicating more by email, less by IM for the next few weeks.
Appointments in the evening are desirable.
Travel is severely cut back.

What this does not mean:
I am still keeping all of my Chosen, playing with my pets, and those Questing for me are still on Quest... that is NOT changing.
I am not quitting D/s.
I am NOT going to miss NEEHU.

I am sorry it has to be this way. Please support me and know that one day, be it six months or three years from now, I will be back doing D/s hypnosis full-time.

I love all of you!